Boo!

so it was a pretty good weekend. It could have been better. I am still just trying to keep my mind clear. this weekend for some reason, I just couldnt keep her off my mind. I would just be sitting there and out of nowhere just her name would pop into my head. I dont get that. I was just watching tv and then my mind would wonder right to her. It sucks. I dont want to think about her any more. Every time i do I almost come to tears. Its not like its bad stuff, like wondering if she even cares/loves/thinks of me anymore, which shouldnt matter now. But its just her name. Mariah. That one word no breaks my heart every time I hear it. I need to change something but I havent figured out what yet. I am gonna start working out on a daily basis. I also am gonna start to be smarter about money. Gonna try to keep the apartment clean and maybe find another girl to think about. I hope some of that stuff work but either way Im getting the fuck out of this city and living somewhere new and exciting and it will most likely be in Chicago. I hope sooner then later but Im gonna wait till at least the spring so these next couple of months are gonna suck big time.