Stupid Boy

Have you ever heard the song by Keith Urban "Stupid Boy"? Thats what I feel like right now. I feel like just another stupid boy. I just can't seem to get my mind past this girl. I have missed her every single day. She brings me to tears so much. I hate her for it almost. I just need to be strong but its really hard to. I don't have anyone to talk to. I live in this town by myself and need to find a way out of here. Its hard though because of this job I have. It's perfect. I went from working night audit to being the Assistant General Manager in under a year. I am getting amazing experience right now but I need to get out to stay sane. I have to find a way to get her off my mind.
I have to go to the Twin Cities this week and of course thats where she lives. It will be the first time there in over 3 years that I wont be going to see her or going there with her. All I want is to be happy and I just have to get it through my think head that I cant be happy with her anymore. I have to move on but it is just so hard to get past someone like her. I just want to go to her house with a dozen roses and a bottle of wine and tell her how much I miss and love her. I wont though. I wont. I know better but god I wish I could do that.
And I know that there are girls out there who would kill to find a guy like me. I just hope that I can find a girl that can exceed her. I can only hope right now...